Monday, August 27, 2007
you know how some of us believe in IT'S A SIGN! well, i swear graham coxon and me. yes, we're both bloody fated.

you'll always be my favourite blur member. coffee and tv sealed the deal for me. sorry damon.

i was reading an interview and my dear graham coxon mentioned evelyn waugh's vile bodies. i read that freakin book! like a few months ago. talk about, IT'S A SIGN! gah! i had fits for a good few seconds. here's the excerpt. just cause i'm a freakazoid.

Do you live in the countryside?
GC: Yeah, half and half.

Oh, that sounds wonderful.
GC: Do you like a bit of Evelyn Waugh?

Evelyn Waugh?
GC: You don't like a bit of him?

I don't know it.
GC: Evelyn Waugh.

Should I know this?
GC: That's W-A-U-G-H.

GC: He wrote a nice book called Vile Bodies. You should read that.

GC: It's kind of like the seamstresses of 1930s London. You can imagine how they dressed; pretty spic-and-span. Yeah, pretty neat.

What was it called again?
GC: Vile Bodies. It's about a journalist in the '30s who is exposing all these wild parties in the '30s. It's pretty cool. Well, that sounds fantastic. Oh, Evelyn Waugh is excellent. He's one of the posh-ist writers ever.


i finally got my hands on graham coxon's love travels at illegal speeds. i can't believe i took a year to discover. pure genius. i love this album to bits. it's on constant replay. cause it makes sense and it's oh-so-lovely. kinda melancholic. but it's graham coxon! the original nerd. well, of the 1990's, that is. i especially dig, 'just a state of mind'.

emptiness i've found you
how bleak you are
moving in the shadows
you're here, and it's clear
that it's just a state of mind
running through the times
keeping us alive

to sam,
i hope you find a way dear.
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Friday, August 24, 2007
am i nora? and will i find my julien?

i finally watched broken english.

what was supposed to be another justin theroux movie turned out to be a gem. one that hit me pretty hard. parker posey as nora was sad. and i could relate to that. somehow. well, i'm not 30, i don't suffer from panic attacks and i'm not as cynical as she is. but it felt like i know her. nora reminded me so much of me in several ways. minus the desperation, that is. i wonder.

there was a scene in the movie towards the end, nora was in a bar with a french dude, jean paul. what he said. it was so bloody apt.

jean paul: its not wrong to want someone to love you? most people are together just so they are not alone. but some people want magic. i think you are one of those people.

nora: something wrong with that?

jean paul: nothing. but it doesn't happen all the time.

nora: does it ever happen?


i love it when lines from a movie or words in a song makes sense.
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007
i got this from dimas. my very own cartoon strip! kinda cute eh?

tell me what you think. it's kinda lame. but i think i'll be doing more of these. haha..
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Monday, August 20, 2007
i've counted. i worked for 21 hours the past 2 days.

9am to 5pm at my store
8pm to 10pm at my bro's store (he was down with partners)

9am to 6pm at my store

my whole body is aching. i can't move my legs. i can't really complain cause my fellow partners work day after day. but still. working after a saturday slam is not advisable. try that sometime. work saturday and sunday at my store. can die! i have no idea how i'm going to work when the new semester starts. no more fridays cause i've got class at 5pm. argh. i can't possible do a weekend combo every week. i'll be too tired. oh nos.

i discovered several facts about myself over the weekend.

1. i clam up when there's a really hot guy in front of me. like go dumb (as in cannot talk) all of a sudden. it's the most retarded thing ever. cause it's bloody obvious i think the guy is hot. i told you guys i'm SHY! don't believe..

2. i hate confrontations/arguments/fights. like, i rather shut up then stir things up. it's the chicken shit in me.

3. i'm always stuck in the middle. be it confrontations, arguments or fights. it's not nice when the person who's mad at the other person don't talk to me too. i truly understand the meaning of 'guilty by association' now.

4. i'm very wary of people.

5. i prefer cats to humans. like a hundred times more. read point 2, 3 and 4.

6. i hate doing chores. maybe cause my bros are doing nothing at home apart from eat, sleep, watch tv and use the toilet. maybe i shouldn't be born a girl. cause the unfairness is just killing me.

since the month is coming to an end, my reign as partner of the month will be over!

finally, some rugby action! can't wait for the next game.
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
while i'm on hols, most of my friends are starting their new semester. like thanks alot ah. i'm seeing some faces soon. but for those who i haven't seen for like centuries, i sure hope we get together like ramma lamma lamma ka dinga da dinga dong..

i am a hybrid of both my parents. like i swear i take both of their qualities. and they don't necessarily complement each other (my parents are opposites for heaven's sake!). which is bad. but i'm glad i take after both of them. cause there's always parts of someone that are worth having. like a quirky habit. a good heart. an open mind. a charitable soul. things like that. things you don't necessarily possess. or maybe do, but lack them.

for the past week, i've been on my nostalgic mode. i'm not sure why i'm listening to aqua. don't laugh. i'm a fan. well, after that song (was it, 'turn back time') they did for the movie sliding doors, not so much anymore. i HATE gwyneth paltrow. don't ask me why. i've got a list of those actors and actresses i loathe. example: franka potente, hillary swank, colin farrell etc. only kate winslet manage to squeeze out of that list. i adore her so, now. so yeah. i've been digging up songs that i enjoyed back in the days. which is nice to hear now. i'll go, "WTF?!" every now and then. funny.

did you know..

that women played like this during the old days?

extra trivia: did you know that women back in the day wore aprons on the tennis court? it was used to hold balls and to protect their dresses from grass stains.
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Thursday, August 09, 2007
my cousin told me i might be schizophrenic. no haters. it's something to do with liking purple and being unable to throw things away. i disagree. i think i have OCD - obsessive compulsive disorder. envisions weekly sessions with a therapist. i hope i don't have to waste my money though. i'm thinking i have my own couch and my poor fc having to listen to me till we're old and crinkly. even when we're on our walking sticks, i have a feeling i'll be yabbering. well, not until she poke me with her stick and eventually i'd drop dead. so anyways, i did a personality test. lame, i know. but i decided to include all those points that are freakishly accurate.

let me know what you think? if you care to read. i swear it's LONG! if you're lazy, just read the ones in bold.

You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. You can be very easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising and you have less concern with others' needs than with your own. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

You feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind. You are not generally self conscious about yourself. High levels of stress can lead to you feeling panic or confusion, but usually you cope with day to day pressures.

You generally make friends easily enough although you mostly don't go out of your way to demonstrate positive feelings toward others. You like crowds but sometimes feel overwhelmed by them. Sometimes you feel like you need some privacy and time for yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You lead a fast-paced and busy life. You move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously and are involved in many activities. You love bright lights and hustle and bustle. You are likely to take risks and seek thrills.

Often you find the real world is too plain and ordinary for your liking, and you use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world for yourself. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You tend not to express your emotions openly and are sometimes not even aware of your own feelings. You are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. You find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. As a person who is open-minded to new and unusual ideas, you love to play with and think about ideas. You also like to debate intellectual issues and often enjoy riddles, puzzles and brain teasers. Often you exhibit a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. Sometimes you feel a certain degree of hostility toward rules and perhaps even enjoy ambiguity.

You are mostly candid, frank and sincere. People find it moderately easy to relate to you. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people.

Often you do not feel effective, and may have a sense that you are not in control of your life. In general you tend to be disorganized and scattered. You have a strong sense of duty and obligation, and feel a moral obligation to do the right thing. You are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. You find yourself procrastinating and show poor follow-through on tasks. Often you fail to complete tasks - even tasks that you want very much to complete. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives
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Wednesday, August 08, 2007
getting smses in bahasa indonesia is hilarious. trying to type my own message in bahasa indonesia is a riot. a slew of messages in bahasa (a relatively foreign language to me - even if my late grandpa was a native. sorry datuk!) marks the start of my new massive crush on a certain guy on bass. dimas anindityo. what a name. i seriously can listen to you speak english in your indonesian accent all day long. without getting bored. or annoyed. maybe it's the look. i like one of those.

photo from here.

i'm not sure what it is with me and falling. its so easy. especially if the person is 'invisible' - whatever that means now, anyway. the fact that i'm so invested in it is appalling. that aspect of me is worth examining. i swear i can't help the gushing. it a natural thing to do. i just think about that person. like 24/7. i. can't. help. it. i'm almost half-tired that everyone keep asking me who's the 'guy of the moment' or goes, "you ah!" like it's a bad thing. well, maybe it is. but it's just the way i operate. i credit it to a lack of real guys in my life. well, worth my fancying anyways. and my vivid imagination. very vivid. like i see things in a story-like manner. kinda like motion picture. but depressing cause it doesn't always materialise. i sometimes wish we have soundtracks in our lives. some moments just need songs to justify the emotion or situation.

i would like to officially thank those who have layan me and my obsessiveness. you guys rock. it's a limited few. seriously, if no one layan me, i'll go MAD! and by layan-ing i mean, smsing me in bahasa/listen to me rant about how i keep seeing him will i revise - freaky, I KNOW! i'm sorry if i have to drag y'all to the gig just so i can satisfy my need to see him. hah. once is never enough, i say.
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Friday, August 03, 2007
it's august. like finally?!

yesterday, THE CURE.

it was worth it. every penny of it. we bought the $78 tickets but sat at the $128 section! woot woot! and ayam sat with us. whee! i'm not a fan fan of the cure but i dig them. robert smith. especially him in their music videos. i remember staying up really late to watch mtv alternative nation. they always play the cure. always.

the concert stretched for about 3 plus hours. i was impressed. they sound as good as they started by the end of the night. i love watching people go crazy when a band play a popular song of theirs. like when they played friday i'm in love, everyone went BONKERS! love it. here's a clip i got via youtube.

good times. boots and cute hugging himself moments. heh.


gawd. mercury rev was awesome. wait. i think i'll steal what islinda said. they were unbelievable. i was blown away. what can i say? i love the dramatics. i can't help but watch the video on the background. the quotes are fab. example: are you a hologram? i thought that was classic. so yeah.

i notice that in most of their songs they have the word, 'friends' in it. am i the only one who notices it? i thought that was nice. just cause i like friends too. no, i love friends. oh ya, i felt like my mum going into the concert. i've heard their songs but somehow i can't remember the titles. which is bad. right now, i have 'the dark is rising' in my head. it's been playing in my head since i left the concert hall. maybe cause it's the first song that got me. flashback: secondary school days. sigh..

since it was tight security at esplanade, i'm thinking there won't be videos posted on youtube tomorrow. here's one from a past concert. somewhere.

i forgot. our seats were the BEST! not close but i was staring straight at jonathan donahue. like, for REAL?!

two words. HELL YEAH!
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