the truth is rarely pure and never simple

We met one day in wet cement

2010-06-05T23:32:00.003+08:00

I'm currently obsessed with The Morning Benders. Now that's an understatement.

I've been raving about Excuses for a few months now and have since moved to other tracks. I've had Wet Cement stuck in my head. I think it's going to stay there permanently until I find out what it's about. I'm so tempted to ask @ohchu.

The band just won more brownie points when I discovered they released a FREE album consist of covers. We all know I had covers. But I'm bias, dammit. They covered Cryin by Roy Orbison, The Cardigans.. AND The Ronettes. If you don't know by now, I love The Ronettes. Screw that, I adore any girl band from that era. I want to be in one, remember.

The Bedroom Covers:
1. Crying - Roy Orbison
2. Mother and Child Reunion - Paul Simon
3. Why Don't They Let Us Fall In Love? - The Ronettes
4. Lovefool - The Cardigans
5. I Won't Share You - The Smiths
6. He's A Rebel - The Crystals
7. Marie - Randy Newman
8. Fools Rush In - Johnny Mercer/Rube Bloom
9. Temptation Inside Your Heart - Velvet Underground
10. Dreams - Fleetwood Mac
11. Pull Up The Roots - Talking Heads
12. Caroline, No - Beach Boys remix (bonus track)
12.5 Why Don't They Let Us Fall In Love? (live daytrotter version!)

Why Don't They Let Us Fall In Love (Ronettes cover) - The Morning Benders by wideeyedmuse

Life as I know it

2010-05-31T21:39:00.001+08:00

This song means an entire city to me

2010-05-24T23:41:00.007+08:00

There is a reason why Kurt Halsey is one of my favourite artist. Poetry in art.

It doesn't help that he echoes my thoughts in some of his works. I personally can relate to the girl in glasses or the girl holding her cat. That other girl who's got earphones on. Her too.

When I get my own place, I'll make sure I'll hang his stuff.

Don't act like there's no tomorrow

2010-05-19T00:18:00.003+08:00

How's work? I'm chugging through. First 'professional' meeting on Thursday. What should I wear?

I'm adjusting better than I thought I would. I'm still pretty wary, work-wise. Lady B is slowly unloading ~~infinite~~ amount of work. She was supposed to be away the whole week. But decided against it. Just my luck.

Third day tomorrow. Ready, set, go.

My other half

2010-05-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

God, I love this guy. Why can't he be mine?

Interviewer: Is it true that sometimes you travel to tournaments in a private jet?
Ernests Gulbis: Yes, and I also have ten helicopters, a submarine and a spaceship.
Interviewer: What about when you were arrested for being with a prostitute in Stockholm?
Ernests Gulbis: It was great. When I meet a girl, I'm not the type to ask her what her profession is.

I fuckin want to have his babies. Period.

The Doctor

2010-05-11T02:04:00.002+08:00

It's not official but I'm already burden with my 'new' work. Lady B literally transformed into a monster when she ordered me to get everything done in two hours. "I know you haven't officially move. But I need your help with blahblahblah. It's already 10am. I want everything by noon. Before lunch. It's urgent." I took one and a half. Was I proving a point? Perhaps. But I envision panic attacks and a possibility of high blood pressure. What did I get myself into?

It's too late to turn back. I don't quit anyway. I'm gonna stick it out like I always do. Here's the thing. I don't look like it. But I'm quite a rebel at heart. I love proving people wrong. I love to rattle folks unwittingly. Nothing in your face. It's just not my style. I'm hoping I'll last about three months. Or else I'm screwed. Unless there's Plan B. Which right now, is a blur.

The Doctor together with Amelia Pond saved my otherwise sucky Monday. I'm SO obsessed with Doctor Who right now. It's not even funny. I just wished more people watch the damn show.

3 levels up

2010-05-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

I'm moving up.

It could get interesting.

We've Grown Apart

2010-04-10T21:16:00.003+08:00

It's been a month since I last updated. Blogging is now a monthly affair. Like whoa, considering I used to blog all the time.

For starters, I'm tired of penning down my thoughts. GASP! I don't think I like writing anymore. HORROR! Lost of interest? Maybe. Fatigue? Most probably.

I'm done. SEE!

2010-03-18T01:23:00.001+08:00

I need a full-time life.

Of Cheeks & Butts

2010-02-11T02:02:00.004+08:00

Because I'm insane and extremely awake at 2am in the morning, I'm going to post this up.

I'm supposed to be tired. But I'm not. I'll face the repercussions tomorrow. As usual. Dead tired in the morning. Enough Big Bang or 2PM (depends on my mood) to perk me up a little bit. Drag my feet to work. The 15 minutes walk to the office everyday helps drain all my energy. By the time I reach the office, I'm as good as dead. I crave for kopi. Stare at the PC for the next 9 hours.

The life.

When I'm trying my best to live, I can't help but fangirl. I think it's the only thing that keeps me alive. For now. Which can be sad, at times. Especially so when 'friends' want you to 'grow up'. Bad news. I think I'm going to do this 10 years down the road. Maybe not as rabid. But once a fangirl, always a fangirl.

Some people need to buy expensive shoes or bags to make them feel better. I don't. I just need to go ballistic over ~~one~~ ~~two~~ ~~three~~ guys (most of the time, all at one go! I frankly don't know how I do it). Okay, maybe more! I lose.

Right now it's a toss up between Wooyoung and TOP. Two very different guys. One cute. One smokin hot. Another example of my libraness. I can't seem to make up my mind!

BUT

At the moment, I totally love the Wooyoung and Junho pairing. EXTREME ADORABLENESS. So cute until I cannot take it. GAHHH!

Okay I'm done. You can stop rolling your eyes or gagging.

Golden Globes 2010

2010-01-18T21:42:00.006+08:00

I'm returning to this space because let's face it, I have attachment issues. I love this blog too much to abandon it.

Anywho, I got the day off today to watch the Golden Globes. I am ridiculous, I know.

Slight backstory to 18th January 2010. I applied leave from work because.. guess what, I actually missed watching the red carpet LIVE. Online updates don't quite cut it for me this year. I wanted to be in front of my telly. Besides, it's the first day of AO. Basically, I needed reasons to stay in. But God intervened. I got an mc instead. Thank you!

I'm so glad I had the day off. I'm recharged now. Ready to settle the pile of work waiting in the office. Woo hoo!

Before that, here are my favourites this year.

It rained and I got really giddy. Alex turned up with a polka dot umbrella! Same as mine. Except his is black and white. :DIES: Sorry, I can't help being bias. :X

I personally ADORE what January Jones wore. So dark. Tres chic!

Loved Drew's dress. Just because it's so simple yet lovely.

I'm all about adorableness this year. Ginnifer Goodwin looked adorable! Love her hair, her makeup and her dress. GUH!

I haven't seen An Education but I dig her already.

These two should just start making babies. Continue that famous Barrymore bloodline. They're SUPER cute together. I can die.

And my MOST favourite couple ever.. JIM/JOHN & EMILY BLUNT!

Pretty sure this is their first official photo(s) together. O. M. G. I wanna see more photos of them together. I can't wait for their wedding. And mini Krasinkis. GAH! Seeing them together totally made my day. God, I'm easy.

Thank you Just Jared for the awesome coverage and photos! ♥

because i can

2009-09-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

i'm back.

seems like a terrible waste to throw something i've had for years.

besides, some folks are still coming back here. and i don't mind updating a gazillion blogs either.

let's keep this alive.

shoo!

2009-06-01T23:11:00.002+08:00

scoot along.

i'm done with this space.

you know i'm happy up here

2009-04-28T22:32:00.006+08:00

can tomorrow come quick?

..because i can't freakin wait for wolverine!

i'm pretty sure 2 of my favourite guys are going to be huge after every jane, sally and mary sees the movie.

before that happens, i want to fangirl about them before they turn 'mainstream'. okay fine. aaron stanford didn't become huge after X2. but he's different. but i'm dead sure taylor kitsch and daniel henney is going to make all the girls go ooh and ahh.

2 words. taylor riggins. i don't get friday night lights at all. but dude made me stay up every night to catch it. i remember my bros making fun of me. #1 went, "wah lau, you watching this stupid show?" #2 added, "boring right?" i replied, "because of him.. sigh.." and pointed to mr kitsch.

before daniel henney, it was eww korean dramas?! yucks. now, i'll watch any korean movies/shows/music video just for him. XD american born korean dudes are awesome. GAH!

before i leave..

hello, mr gambit!

a hot engagement

2009-04-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

look who got engaged?

vee looked smokin hot in her cheongsam lah. i also want can?

many thanks to those who braved the heat with us. sorry for the countless power trips. my dad did pay the bills.

ol' blue eyes

2009-04-13T22:36:00.004+08:00

R.I.P. Putih

you will always be in our hearts.

i am a fish

2009-04-09T22:17:00.004+08:00

i'm off to tioman!

all messages and calls to my second line please. if you went "huh?" forget it. i'll get back to you on monday or something.

you folks have a good one day holiday + weekend!

it's a fanboy/fangirl thing

2009-04-07T00:17:00.006+08:00

worst week is over. i nearly keeled but i'm here now.

a couple of things been bugging me. athia's departure was a huge blow. since she's my partner in crime at work. the office is so different without her around. it sucks. putih is getting weaker by the day. she's 14. but still. i feel like i'm all over the place. i can't remember what i did or say anymore. it's not even dementia. i need sleep. and i wish my stupid ulcers would disappear. and that horrid headache. together with the sore throat. what a way to start april.

enough of the awfulness. i finally watched fanboys! :D

i didn't know you can't be fans of both star wars and star trek. cause i am. :X does that make me a hypocrite/traitor? meh.
i officially am crushing on jay baruchel. i've seen him in random stuff. first, as a total geekoid in undeclared. I HEART JUDD APATOW! and finally noticing his sexyness in tropic thunder.
the wookie car horn thingy is the funniest shit. i want one too!
linus does look like a younger version of paul rudd. and we all know how much i love paul rudd. <3

i want to meet my fanboy. ugh.

screwed up

2009-03-24T23:11:00.008+08:00

this week's been an utter mess. i'll pay to be back there right now.

just getting lost in the forest.

it was perfect.

THE OFFICE

2009-03-21T14:24:00.005+08:00

i just finished watching the office (awesome episode by the way and jim/john is looking hothothot in a suit! *starts to hyperventilate*) and i think it's about time i blogged about my office. yay!

side note:

favourite word of the month: awesome

everyday i spend about 9 hours in the office. as depressing as that may sound to everyone, it's actually not that bad. i have a kickass desk. okay, seriously. it's not that awesome. i just think it's fab cause of the stuff i have on it.

come see!

my photo mosaic! filled with lovelove and nothing but love!

the FIRST team is sitting in front of me. soo many times i wish i can butt in their convos about movies and shit. ARGH! the envy.

i've got ben barnes/prince caspian and hugh dancy staring at me. whee!

my handmade/personally customized magnets. aren't they cute?

war of the bobbleheads!

my swat team.

consisting of:

chewbacca
captain penguin
lego man
alex the lion

if anyone messes with me, my chewbacca will bite them in the ass.

in other the office related news, i want to see jim/john's new movie.

he looks so GAH! with his hair, beard and glasses. *dies*

got mascara-ed?!

2009-03-17T10:02:00.009+08:00

everyone pretty much know by now that i'm a lazy girl. my definition of lazy girl being, one who enjoys looking nice but is just too plain lazy to put in the effort. don't shoot me. i do have my moments. maybe on rare weekends, you'll catch me with a dash of blusher and lipstick on. but other days, i just go by with powder and a must-have: lipgloss. well okay. maybe i'm a little obsessed with lip balms too. i even collect them!

thing is, i've always been apprehensive about anything to do with my eye area. eye shadow, eye liner, mascara. GAH! i blame my sensitive and over-reacting eyes. they flinch at the slightest thing. putting on my contacts (i can count the number of times i have them on for god's sake!) is hell.

but hey, it's never too late too learn right?! for starters, i'm gonna practise my eye liner-ing skills. make-up is kinda like maths. you gotta practice till you got it. and you need concentration. i, on the other hand, have a concentration span of a five year old. i'll prolly take a longer time to master the skill. but heck. watch me.

next in line, MASCARA!

i'm going to give fasio's hyper-stay mascara deep trick curl long a try. anyone using any fasio products? it'll be nice to hear what you have to say. cause i personally love their make-up remover. clickety click HERE!

for my friends who are still in school, *extreme envy* there'll be fasio booths in your campuses. i missed the nus one. it happened yesterday and today. dang! for the rest, head on down to the respective venues. go kepo-kepo and let me know what went down.

fellow SIM-ians, it's going to be tomorrow! hit the plaza. it's pretty hard to miss right? if you want to go to the library or atm machine, you hafta pass by it. so gogogo!

AT THE CAMPUSES:

11am - 4pm

18 March 2009

SIM University

The Plaza

19 March 2009

Nanyang Technological University

Canteen A (in front of LT IA)

20 March 2009

Singapore Management University

Atrium @ Li Ka Shing Library (B1)

For more information, please visit http://www.seventeen.com.sg/fasio2009/

my dorian gray

2009-03-07T23:43:00.003+08:00

they don't make men like this anymore, do they?

thanks justjared.

what i love about australia

2009-03-03T22:26:00.005+08:00

i think it's awesome that my dearest brother is painstakingly uploading some of the photos we took over at facebook. DANKE ABANG CHOO! i'm pretty sure some are sick and tired of seeing our camho-ness lah.

for those who don't have facebook:
i'm not sure if the albums can be assessed by the public. try THIS!
let me know if it works. i'll post the other links.

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i really enjoyed the parks! i try my darnest to sit on the grass or chill by the bench whenever i can. folks clad in business suits were sitting on the ground, eating their lunch! like whatthefark?! i'm so jealous lah. i think my inner tree hugger-ness came out after seeing all the green!

on the way to bondi!

we're happy campers. and that's my nephew. he went nuts when he saw a topless chick. heh. priceless.

my self portraits are often moronic. i pose like i'm at a school trip or some shit. case in point.

you can stop laughing now. T_T

i LOVE bondi!

i'll go there in a heartbeat.

i keep telling everyone who asked. bondi is like heaven on earth. i've never seen a nicer shade of blue.

don't you agree?

this photo is made of so much win.

note:
i miss my hair in australia. it was so much nicer than what i have now. UGH.

what a way to start a saturday

2009-02-28T09:01:00.002+08:00

i think i need to get my cats on a treadmill.

it's a saturday morning and i'm wide awake. i blame waking up early for work.

la dolce vita

2009-02-25T22:17:00.005+08:00

the song that's playing right now is the theme song from the fellini classic, la dolce vita. nope, i haven't seen it. i got it from the movie, how to lose friends and alienate people. which is made of so much win. go watch it!

i LOVELOVELOVE this scene to bits. i remember a silly grin.

GAH!

dancing to a classic tune. in your pjs nonetheless.

and THIS! i melted.

my love for the classics, outdoor movies, sitting on the grass - all roll into one awesome scene! perfection.

note:
this is a random post.

off to the flyer!

2009-02-23T22:19:00.009+08:00

last saturday, we brought nyai to the flyer. everyone was excited. except my dad. he, funnily enough, have the worst case of fear of heights. like super extreme. and i'm not even exaggerating.

he blames me. long story short. i dragged him for a ride in one of those kickass rollercoasters. think UK fair. dude was pale after the ride. it was darn funny but i felt guilty.

the happy campers!

i went on the flyer once before. but it was at night. so, this time round, i was planning to see the sunset. which we did catch. albeit a cloudy sky.

ain't it pretty?

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my thoughts on the 2009 oscars:

1) i think hugh did a good job at the oscars.
2) i had no clue anne hathaway can sing.
3) first person i saw in the audience was guillaume and i automatically exclaimed, "marion!"
4) angelina jolie looked like an ice queen. and i dig her green earrings alot.
5) odd. i don't have any best dress or worst dress this year. maybe no one caught my eye. but kate looked ravishing in her YSL.
6) i went GUH when kate said, "my sam". <3

i blame the satay and the fried chicken for my sore throat and running nose. i slept 7 hours straight and now i can't feel a thing.

the one with the green tee

2009-02-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

he never fails.

GAH!

sucky work week, anyone?

2009-02-13T23:16:00.006+08:00

i think i'm obsessed with slumdog millionaire.

i tried convincing several people to watch it today. at work. i was yapping all the way. doing anil kapoor impressions. listening to jai ho and picturing that train station scene. gah!

i blame the sucky work week.

1) i've never been so pissed at work.
2) stupid redtape.
3) going up to level 7.
4) getting signatures of important people.
5) someone covered her ass in my expense. bloody fucker. knn.

I never forgot. Not for one day.

2009-02-12T23:26:00.004+08:00

everyone go watch slumdog millionaire.

it's awesome shit. and i want dev patel's puppy dog eyes staring at me NOW!

you've been PLURK-ed!

2009-02-10T23:31:00.003+08:00

this is too cool. and i can't help it. i'm a social networking drone.

if you're feeling free, get a PLURK! don't forget to add me. :D

The Great Australian Adventure

2009-02-08T00:26:00.014+08:00

i can't farkin believe i was in australia a month ago. time flies like nobody's business lah. shit. i've been seeing places i visit in my head/mind. like the way to guilford. mainly the zebra crossing near the train station. the street to my hotel in sydney. flinders street in melbourne. melbourne park. i had no idea i would have so much fun. i knew i was excited to see caca and of course, tennis. what else.

but my cynicism towards australia was kicked out of the window once i'm there. i genuinely love it there. the city. aah.. the streets. i don't quite like the long train rides. but heck. having the sydney opera house and sydney harbour bridge within walking distance was a dream. to go there every other day was just magical. surpisingly, eating a cup of baskin robbins overlooking the sydney harbour bridge was one of my favourite moments during the trip - among many, many others i must add.

this post is long overdue. i blame the tons of photos we took. it took days to upload! but there were so many things to capture. so here goes. not everything. cause i took a thousand odd photos and my bro another 3000 plus. the madness!

SYDNEY

sitting on grass. check.

our travel snapshots = my bro holding the camera while we try to squeeze into frame, with the background behind us. which i'm supposed to make into photo mosaics. but flickr ain't cooperating. ugh.

having both in my line of view was such an experience. i envy sydney-ians who have the luxury of hanging out there.

one of my favourite shots.

instead of being passive = taking pictures from afar, we decided to walk to the sydney harbour bridge.

we walked on it. major experience! it was blardy windy. and it rained towards the end. but the view. ohmygod! screw the bridge walk. just walk like normal people do. it's equally awesome!

note:
blogger is taking eons to upload my photos. i quit. i'm gonna do this in batches. i was there for 2 weeks. bear with me. i promise you, it'll be worth it.

the ballad of alessandra & gianluca

2009-01-29T00:23:00.004+08:00

la notte più bella
ha un sapore come di facilità.
la notte è una folla
porta in sè la quantità
senza un' età.
tutto è come sei tu,
tantomeno tu sei di più
bella come accadrai
sai di facilità.
notte che non ti ho vista
nottetempo ti ho vista sei tu,
tu sei mille almeno tu
ciò che è di più.

i LOVE them!

they must be lovers. :D

time to brush up my italian.

oi, oi, oi! -back from down under

2009-01-24T23:52:00.004+08:00

i'm back.

nursing an extreme case of i'm-not-done-with-australia-yet syndrome. which is bad. i blame the australian open and it's awesomeness. i took shitload of photos. 15 days went like a breeze. fark. more soon.

7 hours of being on the airplane makes me angsty. but thank you qantas for the fab in-flight entertainment system.

i watched:

random stuff i conjure:

- tropic thunder is hilarious. favourite people in a movie is an absolute bonus.
- i adore simon pegg to pieces.
- i finally watched wall-e and teared a couple of times. guh.

p/s the australian sun/heat is unforgiving. and my skin is peeling. it's pretty gross.

bon voyage

2009-01-09T00:13:00.004+08:00

i'll be away from 10th to 24th january.

everyone behave.

before it hits 2009

2008-12-30T22:59:00.013+08:00

one/~~two~~ more day to the new year. 2008 was kind. and i can't wait for 2009. less than 2 weeks and i'm off. time to leave the country. australia, here i come! i cannot wait. it's going to be sweltering hot. and i'll be baked under the hot sun for about 4 days (AUSTRALIAN OPEN, BITCHES!). i signed up for it! and ernests. GAH! i'm gonna bring him home, babysitters! yeah right?!

before the start of a new year, i enjoy looking for calendars i end up not using. think: the office 2008 calendar. oh-so-pretty! ended up in my drawer cause i can't bear to tear the plastic. no worries. the photos are of use. dates serves as remembrance. anyways. i'm stuck. i've got a couple of choices. HELP! which should i choose?

for now, let's reflect by looking at photos of people i adore.

my babysitters. my fellow fangirls.

JIans. you guys been there through the years. to us!

the ever exclusive finer things club. sarcasm aside, i love you guys.

my funfunfun bunch! work's bearable because of you guys.

and no, i don't do resolutions. i don't believe in them. why must you work on resolutions once a year? shouldn't it be an ongoing thing? well, that's just me. making short-term plans every minute. more like, which country to conquer next? hah.

because i'm such a fan of anne taintor. here are all the artworks i dig and believe the most.

i especially LOVE the last one. she liked imaginary men best of all. i choose no other.

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we're moving office this friday. fuck. boxes with my name on it makes me angsty. the unpacking. and sitting further away from my writers. i think i'll be fine.

as much as i'm dreading the early mornings and one hour or so train + bus journey to work - i'm pretty psyched about decorating my tiny and sorry ass space i call my 'cubicle'.

p/s i love making photo mosaics! <3

we're off to the toy museum!

2008-12-14T00:17:00.005+08:00

today was funfunfun! finally! a trip to the toy museum! SQUEE! man, that's alot of exclamation marks. i gotta chill. too much enthusiasm.

the musuem is tucked away in a row of shops. a quaint building, i must say. i dig it alot.

note:
i took tons of photos. cause i'm still giddy from the trip, i can't wait to blog! :D will add the photos once i've uploaded them. thankyouokaybye!

i spent the longest time at the beatles section. like duh? was snapping away like nobody's business. and my camera battery died. thanks eh.

king kong = MAD LOVE

we played hopscotch. not.

my attempt at being the fifth beatle. cheesy but it's cool okay?!

camhos.

i love this shot. and the tee. and i miss bangkok. i hope it's safe enough come april.

till we meet again.

i'm with the media

2008-12-10T23:41:00.009+08:00

that prolly make a good pick up line. heh.

just a week ago i was questioning my job. i was seriously contemplating a career switch. more on that later. anyways, it was a constant buzzing in my ears from outside sources sorta thing. it got on my nerves for a few days. think a negative infused why is a degree holder doing this? usually, i won't give a damn what others think. but last week, i had a relapse. uncertainty makes me angsty. more so when there's doubts.

but yesterday, i realised something. i love my job. guess who's easy to please?

someone got invited to a media event. well, sorta. many thanks to Z for detesting twilight. heh.

i went for the movie premiere of twilight. can i say WHEE?! and goodies. not many but still.

there was a pseudo-red carpet. but didn't spot any celebrities. i think we went in too early! heh.

rabid twilighters decked in their t-shirts.

it was a mistake sitting a row in front of them. i do not appreciate screaming fangirls. at all. i'm a fangirl. but i don't scream. I SQUEE instead.

the movie was entertaining but a tad cheesy. i swear i was cringing (and i'm supposed to be a supportive fan?!). but i liked it. LOVE the prom scene. and the song. GAH! robert pattinson looks hot in that scene. not so busuk. just the way i like him. post cedric diggory, pre twilight state.

so who wants to watch twilight with me? i'm up for another round! heh.

the drugs won't work

2008-12-04T22:17:00.004+08:00

i was right. today sucked. there's hammering in my head. i take back my words. headaches are not a state of mind. they exist and they suck. cause i can't think. and something shitty is affecting me. i need to snap out of it. i need fresh air. a different setting. i don't care if australia is hot. i want my two weeks now.

this made my day. kinda.

i can't wait to see this. in flesh.

the office

2008-12-03T22:03:00.005+08:00

this week's been a blast. so far. every day feels like a friday. tomorrow will suck cause tami and su will be leaving. ugh. am seriously dreading the move. heavy heart. i blame the great distance. and me waking up earlier than now. suckass. and the packing. fuck. shitloads of stuff to pack from my editorial side. i envision tons of boxes. HELP.

latest news.
i'm in a band. we don't have a name at the moment though.

WATCH OUT BITCHES!

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i seriously feel like i'm in the office (as in my favourite show ever, the office). and i'm pam. sorta. pick up calls. doodle on my notebook. no sign of jim though.

reasons why i feel like i'm in the office
- i'm in the party planning committee
- msn conversations (okay so jim and pam don't exactly use msn but same difference lah)
- office party (albeit a farewell one)
- pranks and more pranks

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camhos going at it.

to more chillout sessions!

talk about random

2008-11-26T23:00:00.003+08:00

i want to blog about how kickass manic street preachers was on monday. but i got distracted by ohnotheydidnt. so shoot me.

i still don't get my fascination with alex greenwald. dude is stinky. and i want his bag. i'll prolly get a similar one for australia. but in black. and from army market.

you'll only see this in hollywood. jim/john a seat away from david i-got-penyek-voice beckham. can i say wtf?!

jim/john all sexay! flannel shirts = <3

one word for this week. scatterbrain.

i met someone who talks like me. but he's a dude.

meow

2008-11-23T22:06:00.003+08:00

i nearly died watching this.

i want a scottish fold so badly.

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this weekend was good. loads of family time and afternoon naps. i feel like a cat.

another reason why my granny is made of WIN.

aunt: eh, i think i need a facial.

me: oh okay. i'll tell vee.

granny: eh, i also want facial!

me: what for?

granny: must look nice. want to meet mat (means guys in malay lingo).

and the whole car burst out laughing. :D

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MANIC STREET PREACHERS TOMORROW, BITCHES!!! i can't farkin wait.

way to normal

2008-11-21T01:01:00.006+08:00

as much as i want to sleep early and wake up early, i'm constantly sabotaging myself. it's 1am and i'm wide awake. tomorrow, i'll wake up at 8 only to roll around in bed till late. i'm usually rushing to work. maybe it's cheap thrill. if not, why do i subject myself to it all the time. it doesn't make sense.

i don't believe ernests self-mutilated his arms. please don't die.

my room is a freakin disco. the light is blinking like there's no tomorrow. i'm not feeling studio 54. at all.

i'm not in a happy state. i still have a slight case of ted-ness. and it sucks. can you spell delusional?

i think regina spektor is so-so adorable. can i have her voice?

i bought the history boys dvd. technically i have 2 now. both us and uk versions. it was going for 10.95. (1) i cannot resist a great deal (2) i'm a whacked THB fan (3) i need to get a life.

i hate/love facebook.

hair fetish.

i've got ted in my head

2008-11-18T00:07:00.004+08:00

if i could make a wish
i think i'd pass
can't think of anything i need
no cigarettes, no sleep, no light, no sound
nothing to eat, no books to read

what more could i ask

theres nothing left to be desired

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facebook is making me ill. and i don't know why i feel queasy when i think of melbourne. not the australian open. something else. and i can't breathe. i love his hair. and his eyes. that's all i know. what a sad fuck. i think i'm not okay.

I've Underestimated My Charm

2008-11-12T22:22:00.010+08:00

THIS definitely made my day. *GRINS*

JIM HALPERT CALLED?! like wtf right? that's my friends (special thanks to sootley) at work humouring me. i will still marry jim if he's gay. period.

cupcakes = LOVE

birthdays aplenty! and it's making me broke. and angsty. cause plans for the australian odyssey isn't finalised. i want everything done PRONTO! maybe it's the stress from work.

i'm always glad to return to tennis though. can i say, painkiller?

just for entertainment sake, i'll list my tennis boyfriends. stop rolling your eyes. my auntie kept referring tsonga as, "eh, you're 2nd boyfriend.." GAH! i can't help it. head giddy.

boyfriend #1 - ernests gulbis aka my latvian wonderboy

boyfriend #2 - jo-wilfried tsonga aka young ali

boyfriend #3 - gilles simon aka the guy with the heart-shaped face

and they're BFFS!!!

don't they look cute together?

i'm filled with glee every time i see them together. <3

p/s the week ain't too shabby.

oh, cruel!

2008-11-09T23:34:00.007+08:00

my cats seriously lack table manners. i feel like sending them to a social etiquette class or some shit. interrupting people when they're having their meals just because you smell fish is not a good enough reason to jump on the dinning table!

the only way i'll take up driving is for moments like this scene in wayne's world. that's about it.

singing bohemian rhapsody with moronic friends. pretty tempting.

today was the start of the tennis masters cup in shanghai. i love same timezones! no late nights for me. and boy was i impressed by mr jo-wilfried tsonga. he is officially boyfriend #2 after the latvian wonderboy. two words for him, tres bien. finefinefine, i'd say. my nyai even made the reference to muhammad ali. which was pretty cute.

i'm not looking forward to tomorrow. or the whole week to be honest. one word. deadlines. i am excited about day 2 of the tennis master cup though. it's federer and giles simon. another must-watch. dude is a dynamite.

brideshead revisited

2008-11-08T18:36:00.003+08:00

finally.

we possess nothing certainly except the past.

041108

2008-11-05T23:55:00.004+08:00

forget the cliched yes we cans. or even, change we can believe in. just mere minutes after being elected president, barack obama have been immortalized in a quote. one that i will cherish forever because it echoes the truth.

i will listen to you, especially when we disagree.

- barack obama

my mum teared a little while watching his victory speech with me. i had goosebumps. at that moment in time, while i watched in awe, half-wishing i was in the crowd in chicago. cause i always feel like i need to be somewhere important. important enough to shape the cause of history. i'm still waiting for my time - i had an overwhelming feeling of hope.

and the world looks on. waiting for the changes to take place.

Daudz laimes dzimsanas diena!

2008-10-18T16:15:00.001+08:00

that's happy birthday in latvian. for me. anywho. this is all old news but i didn't have time to upload my shitload of photos. and they're all up now. so yeah.

the babysitters took me out for my birthday. whee! vicky christina barcelona, my ass lah.

argh! coco exotic! my favourite cake ever lah.

the two october babies. and our joint birthday celebrations.

it was pretty stressful when everyone's trying to cut the cake. i think. i didn't help. :X

i LOVE how mima always makes her own wrapping paper! <3

fyi: my present is awesome! with a capital A. i swear. i've never been so thrilled. i think i screamed when i saw it. again. I LOVELOVELOVE it guys! you guys rock lah. GAH!

however, i can't disclose it. just in case, some rabid tennis/ernests fans might rip the idea that my friends came up with. so yeah. i intend to wear it for the AO's in jan. till then.

my 'birthday card' was pretty kickass too. a tennis ball! wtf right?! i dig it so much.

mima's turn to open her presents. we all thought the che guevera matchsticks box looked way cool. i would totally get it for myself.

us chilling at cathay. i know i don't say this alot.. but i love having brothers work at starbucks! THE PERKS! iced black coffee + sugar syrup = heavenly.

sham's masterpiece. it's hilarious shit.

a peek at my present.

i'm obsessed with it. and i love the babysitters like i love cotton candy!

this oktober

2008-10-16T22:03:00.009+08:00

i was punk'd at work just now. and there i was feeling utterly miserable. cause this year was supposed to suck. i'm sick. no, make it, dying instead. cause it truly felt like it.

how it went down:

my editor aka boss told me i'll have my evaluation around 4pm. WTF?! i was scared shitless lah. kept hoping i'll be fine. cause i'm planning to keep my job. when i reached the pantry, i was greeted by about 20 odd people, singing happy birthday. i was shocked! seriously. it was fab!

i gotta thank everyone for chipping in. for making it a memorable advanced birthday celebration. long story short, we have tons of october babies. i was dead sure they'll skip my birthday and celebrate the others. the popular ones, i supposed. man, i was wrong. and GAH! so many people turned up. feels blessed.

they bought me a book with cat photos. the card was filled with LOL-worthy messages. and i got an ang bao! SCORE!

the photos! excuse the pale face. i'm still sick.

my editorial team. <3

the girls i hangout with during lunch. crazy bunch.

a MASSIVE thank you to everyone who made it happen!

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talking about october babies, we celebrated su's birthday last week. t'was funfunfun! she was very sporting. did the whole stand up on the chair speech. for the record, it's not a HWZ custom for birthday folks to stand up on their chair while saying their speech. i didn't do it. cause i'm a retard. i did mine between sniffles. besides, i'm SHY!

there was some dude in our photo. HAH!

i LOVE october!

this and that

2008-10-08T00:13:00.005+08:00

look what i stumbled into whilst doing research for work.

click to enlarge

i swear i was doing actual work prior to this.

after seeing chuck on every blardy page, i was too distracted! GAH! CHUCK!!!

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i'm supposed to come up with a birthday list. so, here it is.

i really can't wait for il divo's latest album, the promise.

other stuff i sorta want:

DVDs

The Dreamers
Gosford Park
Waitress

Prince - Musicology

Books

Twilight - Stephenie Meyer
Sherman's Lagoon Comic Book

Other Stuff

Magic Eight Ball
Domo Kun stuffed toy
Po (from Kung Fu Panda) stuffed toy

off to watch heroes!

hari raya 2009

2008-10-02T23:01:00.008+08:00

this year's celebrations, albeit last minute preparations and much crankiness was oh-so-awesome! i can't quite describe it. with the number of glitches it should have sucked. but the littlest thing shouldn't affect such a merry affair. especially one that brings the family together.

we usually talk about forgiveness when it comes to hari raya. personally, i like how it feels to be cared. not in an old folks sorta way. it's refreshing to hear someone scream your name when you're at the door (i.e. my aunties). or fuss about how bimbotic you sound talking about your new hairdo. folks who actually know what my job is without asking. people who know i taste sambal goreng at every house just because it's my favourite dish ever. loved ones who laugh at your jokes. even if it's not as funny as you think. well, it happens.

this year we didn't get to take our customary marsinah's family portrait. it's a yearly thing where aunts, uncle and cousins from my mum's side would doll up to take tons of photos with my uncle's hugeass DSLR camera. he's possibly one of the best photographers i know. and he's a great role model. someone i look up too.

i did managed to get the random snapshots. not.

food glorious FOOD! think devil's curry and black pepper chicken. yum!

pros going at it.

here's me and my two aunts. i LOVE them lah! thank you so much for everything. especially for passing me the travelling bug. haha.. i owe you guys big time.

mum with her mummy. precious.

i seriously don't know why my granny was laughing deliriously.

i really, really, really hope i'd grow old like her.

she's the only one who gave me a green packet. whee! i'm not complaining. i definitely think giving is better than receiving. i've never felt more intrinsically rewarded than passing the green packets to the few who were lucky enough to get them. i got to be honest. i need alot of training. i ran out of green packets in the first few hours. gah!

to more house visiting!

i am a flapper, hear me roar!

2008-09-28T23:58:00.004+08:00

i lost my voice. croaking is the equivalent to speaking for me. don't believe? try calling me. a tranny will pick up the call. i kid you not.

i wanted to blog about 'a day in the office' in conjunction with season 5's premiere but i lost interest. as much as i'm digging the job, some folks are rubbing me the wrong way. i blame pms and i-don't-like-your-face for the most part of it. it's pretty sad but first impressions is/are a bitch. i can't help the way i look. fret not. i have people who are funfunfun! y'know how one or two people can spoil things. it's just the way it goes.

i finally chop off my hair! am totally loving the new look. just a few minutes after the haircut, i was camwhoring with the brother. that was uncharacteristically me. i must say, the dude who cut my hair is awesome! i hope he cuts my hair when i return.

here's a peek.

i personally think i look more like a flapper now. heh.

p/s i'm sorry if i've been shirking social calls. i'm unwell and hari raya is kinda big thing for my family.

nobody move, nobody get hurt

2008-09-22T01:00:00.001+08:00

who knew? we were playing dodgeball all this while.

i think i'm done. playing.

i'm bummed.

today sucked ass. tomorrow will be much better.

double fault

2008-09-20T21:31:00.005+08:00

i was real excited when i was reading the papers today. that's me, trying to act like i read the papers everyday. hah. well, i try.

anyways, supposedly there's this menswear designer who's latest collection was inspired by everything tennis. went a little giddy and checked it online. GASP! i was beyond horrified. not only was it a joke. i don't get it at all. apart from the green runway. they also made a scoreboard as the background and plenty of tennis balls lying around. but they were all white! wth?! i dig the tennis socks though. i might wear them. hah.

the male models are looking mighty dreary. what happened to the likes of mark vanderloo, travis fimmel and my personal favourite, alex lundqvist? the models looked questionable. from my point of view lah. and they had sour faces. like they wanted to get the hell out of there. sad.

here's thom browne's spring 2009 collection.

credits: men's style

thoughts?

i think let's leave the action where they belong.

on the tennis courts.

the muzik list

2008-09-16T01:26:00.007+08:00

i can't sleep.

not when i slept from 9 to 11pm just now. dammit.

the system is pretty much screwed up.

i have work tomorrow but i'm wide awake. and it's close to 2am. fark.

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i stayed up till late last night, looking for pretty pictures of bands i dig. figured i might want to do a short write-up of some sort. let's just get it over and done with, why don't we?

quirky, unconventional and trigger-happy pretty much sums up super furry animals. they're definitely my favourite band ever. it took me one song. i love mopping the floor to, northern lights. it's just mad chirpy. and i'd listen to any songs sung in welsh if it's gruff singing.

the love i have from this band is pretty intense. one song never fails to make me cry. whenever i play it, i get real sad. and i don't even think it's a sad song. they spell melancholy and i have to thank them for being there when i needed solace.

i fell in love with this band. get it, get it? okay that was just a sad. anywho. i personally think that jack white is a genius and i want to marry him. the whole concept behind the band was super clever, i feel. i totally love the fact that it's a two-person band. voice, guitar and drums. that's it. the simplicity. and it does help that they have everything in red and white. i made it my 20th birthday party theme. everyone turned up in either red and white. LOVE IT!

ooh.. i love this band to bits. like really. not only is the bro-sis combi pretty endearing. their songs are generally feel-good tunes and they make you want to sway from side to side. i thought the cartoons where cute. and they have the pianica in the band! like wtf right? i can play that thing.

my favourite nerds. i don't usually like american bands (there's only 3 american bands in my list). cause i think the tempo is too fast for my liking. it's like they're rushing somewhere. i prefer the brits. most of them take their time. not sure if this makes sense. anyways, i think their colour coded albums are awesome. especially blue and green. highly infectious. and i'm blaming the band for sparking my fascination towards tall, lanky dudes. and with that kinda hair, mind you.

oh mr carl barat, how you always sing what's on my mind. literally. their songs always makes sense to me. somehow. even if it's about england. i will find something that connects. i'm just dying to see them live. a lot of energy i'm sure. and they're quite a riot to watch.

anyone who knows me long enough will know that i have a thing for swedes. the nordic folks, to be precise. norwegians and danish folks included. nina and posse is just GAH! her voice. that badass attitude. and HER. isn't she lovely? i wanted to be her for the longest time. they haven't been dishing out hits like they used to but i think it's a-okay. they're can't do no wrong.

speaking of swedes, here's another band. THE HIVES!!! man, they rock. pelle is ridiculous on stage. it's funny how i tend to like colour coordinated bands. they're get-up consist of black and white. suits and ties, at times. totally original and unique. i'm just not liking the recent normality. they're always be the oddballs to me. and who can forget that vma performance.

these lads are laidback. when i think of their songs, 'breezy' comes into mind. images of sandy beaches and wind sweeping your hair comes to view. i like how conor's voice is all shrilly but doesn't annoy me one bit. i'm pretty bias though. i really like their videos. mostly of them walking around and doing things. simple stuff.

can i say over the top? this bunch thrills me endlessly. and yeah, i love anything camp. as gaudy as possible. they're mad fun! and i love colours, disco-inspired and very happy people! ideal to shut the world out. think of happy thoughts and bubbles.

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okay, i'm done. time to sleep.

Spay Away!

2008-09-12T22:19:00.004+08:00

here's why i've been a muddlehead for the past few weeks.

weeks of planning. and many more to come.

To register, there are a couple of methods to go about it:

1. Download the consent form.

Fill it up, sign it and mail it back to us at:
Cat Welfare Society
Orchard Road P.O. Box 65, Singapore 912303

2. Call 7000-CATSNIP

Please leave your contact details and mailing address if possible.
We would still need to mail the consent form out for you to fill out before we can confirm your registration.

3. Email info@catwelfare.org
We would also need your contact details and mailing address so that we can slot you into the right area for collection. More information will be available later!

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SHARE THE LOVE!

mr krasinski

2008-09-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

so, my days can totally sucked. and i feel like crap. chocolates can rectify the weariness. but only jim/john can bring warm and fuzziness into a cold heart.

i don't know how to explain it.

he's just it, for me.

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maybe 'real' people make you happy. mine just happen to live across the atlantic.

i need the office NOW!

au contraire

2008-09-04T23:07:00.005+08:00

i'm not cured. yet.

it's true, i've curbed my online shopping. the addiction is pretty much under control. that's after countless lecturing from several important people in my life. they are: mum, dad, caca and pretty much the rest of the world. i don't obsessively purchase anything i see/like by a mere click anymore. i do tend to window shop. just that, i do it on my browser.

recently, i failed.

i can already picture some people shaking their heads in disgust. I'M WEAK, I KNOW!

i bought two things to be exact. and i'm mighty happy about my purchases.

1. a charm necklace with the word, 'oui' engraved on it. for those of you who don't know, 'oui' means yes in french.

the lowdown:
- i've been searching for a kickass necklace for ages.
- i had to decide between 'oui' and 'non'.
- it took a month for this baby to reach me.

2. a gold-plated vintage filigree ring

the lowdown:
- i'm obsessed with filigree rings. my promise/engagement/marriage (if it ever happens lah) ring NEEDS to be a filigree ring. period.
- i was eyeing this since forever. i was lucky the girl had an extra piece. last piece belongs to me, baby!

my next target:

a handmade vintage leather handbag satchel

ain't it pretty?

- i've got my eyes on this for ages too.
- i can't buy it cause i've got debts (e.g. IOUs and later i pay hor) to settle AND have far too many bags to begin with.
- but it's BROWN. everyone knows i LOVE brown! especially brown bags.

fyi: everything i own does not come via the internet!

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my granny made me a pillow.

GAH!

it looks something like this.

i love my nyai to bits.

till january!

2008-09-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

I BOUGHT MY TICKETS TO

AUSTRALIAN OPEN 2009!!!

conversations with myself

2008-08-31T01:03:00.004+08:00

the only reason(s) why i'm not updating is (1) i spend the entire day in front of the comp everyday, i'm going blind. not kidding. (2) i only want to talk about tennis. cause nothing else interest me nowadays.

and yes, i've been a tennis fan for years. my dad can attest to that. i wasn't as into it as i am right now cause i didn't have anyone that i support ~~fanatically~~. just like in soccer, you gotta choose a team. you don't really watch soccer without digging a club. it applies to most sports. maybe not golf. it's such a bore, i can never get it. ever!

as usual, i lied. i'm going to talk about tennis. muahaha..

it's ernests' birthday today! the big two zero. i feel less paedophlic. only slightly. can i just say the dude is made of hotness. it doesn't help that he looks gorgeous in navy blue. i dig the new addidas kit. never take it off. okay, maybe not. heh. he lost to ooh-i'm-sucha-douche roddick. but i'm fine. he played well. not good enough, i supposed. my dad was watching the match with me. he was impressed. there i was, beaming with pride.

dad: wah! he's good.

me: I KNOW!

dad: fantastic shot man!

me: YA!

dad: where is he from?

me: erm.. latvia.

dad: LATVIA?!

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i'm obsessed with writing down conversations. humourous ones only. or ones that holds special meaning to me. and i think stories are meant to be shared. especially interesting ones. if you don't have a story to tell, you're pretty much boring to me. case in point: a certain teacher i had a couple of years back. i swear i was never frustrated with anyone due to their lack of charm. i'm usually forgiving but her. gawd, no.

it's been a testing few weeks. i'm not gonna complain. cause as much as i like to, i think it's pointless. it has nothing to do with work. work's been fine. i'm still trying to find some ground. honestly, office dynamics baffles me. it feels like i'm in the office. as in, my favourite tv show ever. minus dwight though. and i guess, i'm pretty good at being alone. which is not so good when you're in the office. cliques here and there. i can't be the neutral person all the time.

which makes me wonder about things. how people operate. in friendships, relationships. i like to think that you can be the same person in every situation. but it's wistful thinking. the best thing to hope is to feel a level of comfort amongst people. when i connect with someone, it's truly a connection. there's a certain sense of ease which is undefinable. you're just you. you don't have to try. you don't have to pretend that you care or if you're listening to them rant. you do it cause you want to. and it's rare. but i do have a select few. whoever you are, i hope i do the same for you.

there's so many things to do. tons of planning. roles and responsibilities i wish to shirk but i can't. mainly because i signed up for them. it's cowardly to run away. but it's definitely tempting. as much as i like to think that i can multi-task well, i hate having to think about so many things at the same time. it's just too much torture for my brains.

i feel stuck. everyone's doing their own thing. i wish i hadn't volunteer to plan for this event. it's too much of an undertaking. i said yes only because no one else had the balls to step up. and i had to. or so i thought.

i hate tantrums. it's okay if you're five. other than that, it's just painfully embarassing.

i'm conflicted. i wish it'll be jan soon. at the same time, i don't want the day to end so soon. i always wish for longer nights. it feels like the day stretch for many hours.

fasting month starts in a day. like damn fast lah!

too lazy to move

2008-08-20T23:48:00.002+08:00

i thought this was pretty funny. look at the dude's expression.

i need to sleep.

i'm lazy to type cause i do it at work. tinkering on the keyboard all day.

ghost world

2008-08-17T02:11:00.003+08:00

i'm so tempted to chop off my hair.

cause i want to look like enid. specs and all.

status: employed

2008-08-13T22:19:00.006+08:00

surprise, surprise.

I GOT A JOB!

not. joking.

went for three interviews last friday. dressed in my 'power suit'. hah. now, that's something that doesn't happen every day. quite a rush trying to get my ass to all the locations. the timings were spread nicely so i managed. circa a few days later, i snagged the job that i really liked. which is amazing.

one word. PSYCHED!

first day was today.

let's just say i had the lethal combination of excitement and anxiety. i was making such a big fuss about what to wear dammit! ugh. it turned out great. folks are friendly. i need some time to adjust. i feel like a kid in a new school. it's daunting.

if you want to know where i'm working. it's HERE. i'm an editorial assistant/coordinator for two of their magazines. i'm hoping to see my name on the october issue. LIKE WHAT?!

fyi: i want my eyebags gone NOW! they're horrid looking. ugh. i can just die.

the humans are dead

2008-08-04T23:50:00.007+08:00

i think belgium boys are pretty yummy.

and no, i'm not crushing on someone new. still sticking to my latvian wonderboy, thank you. just made an observation whilst aimlessly browsing through facebook.

i've been slogging at work. not enough partners. besides, i need the money for my trip. i don't really mind. but i worked for 11 hours today. not. kidding. 7am to 6pm.

oh ya, 2 athletes from the us olympic team came to the store just now. i thought that was cool. i asked if they were ready. one of the dudes answered, "we are." wow. with such conviction sia. albeit the goofy face. heh. i wonder if michael phelps stopped by.

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i love my mum. she's like a +ve sign hovering around me 24/7.

what went down:

my brothers were discussing about a possible family trip to KL. just 5 of us. ali's family.

mum: you're adik going australia on january lah.

GAH!

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i love sundays (when i'm not at work. and i can spend the day doing nothing. without feeling guilty).

especially going to the supermarket with my mum.

me: eh, why you never buy dodo fishball?!

mum: don't have lah.

anywho.

is & imah, we need to get together for a massive GOSSIP-thon, PRONTO!

and let's talk about raise high too. and more photos!

greetings from sydney

2008-07-22T23:41:00.006+08:00

got an e-mail from caca.

that totally made my day.

facts (some are funny) from the e-mail:

- her e-mail was longer than mine. now, that's rare! hah.
- she's found a place. yay!
- it's freezing there
- she called me mate

i think i'm going to send her a postcard.

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i hope mima have fun in tokyo.

good luck sham.

i want to bore cinsi with more ernests-related stories. gah!

ayam is turning into a zombie!

we need more babysitters time. yakking is fun!

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a shot i took from dad's car.

i want to hop on the flyer. next week, maybe.

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i'm looking for WRITERS. you'll be paid. must love music.

i'm only sleeping

2008-07-20T23:35:00.005+08:00

i'm beat.

i'll post about everything soon.

not i

2008-07-09T00:16:00.004+08:00

this whole fuss about graduation and the bash after that is making my head spin. don't get me wrong. i'm excited. but gee whiz! i hate spending money when i know i need to save up for australian open cum january. yep, it's definitely happening people. and i'm PSYCHED! it's the only thing i'm looking forward to right now.

i had to get shoes for my graduation. only black court shoes. wtf?! so dull sia. and i was already planning to wear my purple chucks cause it'll look super cool. my parents will allow it. the administration people? don't think so.

here's what happened when i showed my dad my new shoes.

me: pak, nice?

dad looks at my shoes.

dad: you want to become imelda marcos ah?

*rolls eyes*

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funny. i actually can't wait for the olympics. after the controversy, i was pretty put off. especially after the report about shoddy work and unfinished infrastructure among other things. c'mon man. it's a freakin international sporting event. you gotta do better.

surprise, surprise. tennis returned as a sport in the olympics. after years of exclusion. so yay!

i cannot wait for this.

uz redzēšanos (that's goodbye in latvian)

2008-07-07T00:21:00.003+08:00

caca's off to sydney. :(
the earth officially feels different.

after the goodbyes, my granny turned to me and said, "you want to buy chocolate?"

gah!
i almost died.

i think she could read the distress in my eyes.
fyi: chocolate solves everything.

i love you nyai. thank you for the reese peanut butter cups. i think i'll be okay.

--

i think federer is losing to rafa. shit. i thought i might stand a chance to win the tickets to london. i got it right with venus. *prays for a win after the rain*

one reason why i love tennis:
love is zero

au revoir, caca

2008-07-03T21:57:00.007+08:00

tuesday was awesome.

my favourites.

we went to the flyer. but for popeye's! no pictures of the food cause we were starving. heh. as promised, alot of camwhoring along the way. my bros are naturals.

after much indecisiveness, we decided on kbox.

my bro was belting song after song like a seasoned pro. don't like karaoke my ass! you, microphone hogger!

our song choices were interesting. i had fun choosing songs. cause most of them everyone sorta knew. phew!

channeling his inner sinatra.

we ended the night with chocolate fondue at haagen dazs.

ice-cream does go well with melted chocolate. i disagree with the green apple though.

LOVE.

thanks to everyone who was involved in the fantabulous day! i don't have much to write cause i don't think words can justify the good times we had.

--

i know you're leaving for sydney, ca. i almost forgot what a daunting experience it'll be for you. instead of making a fuss of your departure, i should just be your fc and say, "everything's going to be okay." sydney will be mad fun. i hope you'll have a great time with your homies. don't you forget about me. keep me posted. always. i love you. and i'll see you in january. *fingers crossed*

in the meantime.

sweet, sweet burn
of sun and summer wind
and you my friend
my new fun thing
my summerfling

laugh...
oh how we would laugh
at anything

daydreamin

2008-06-29T22:26:00.005+08:00

i find it increasingly uncomfortable to be digging a younger dude. not only does the age difference bothers me (yaya.. in an unrealistic way *rolls eyes*). watching the guy grow up in front of your eyes makes you feel old. and slightly paedophelic, for lack of a better word. it's distressing.

it's so hard to try and not act all excited. and yak about it all day long. i think it's harder for me to keep quiet. let's just say i'm a sharer. and if you know me well enough, it's possibly one of my favouritest things in life. period.

i love my family. especially mum. why? for layan-ing my celebrity/sportsman/actors/singers crushes. endlessly.

me: mak, mak! come see my boyfriend!
mum: where?
[notice she didn't ask me to shut up. no mention of "nonsense la you" or anything remotely negative that might dampen my hopes]

mum: this one ah *points to nadal*
me: NO!

the camera switches to the other end of the tennis court.

me: him.. *sigh*

mum: oh.. hansem!

gah!

--

caca is leaving in less than a week's time. and yesterday, it finally felt like, "yup. she's leaving for a year. man, it'll suck." and that, my friends, is an understatement. the escapist in me tried blardy hard not to think about it. well, it worked. until now. sitting on the couch, laughing made me think, "when will be the next time we're able to do this?"

one year maybe? life will be so different without you, ca. who the hell will i turn too if i want to complain about the most silliest things? it won't be the same. no one is going to layan my ass like you do! argh. i shan't be a baby but dude, i'm going to miss you so.

tuesday gotta kickass.

on a happier note, i'm playing tennis tomorrow. can i say, at last?!

--

almost forgot.

deustchland vs espana tonight.

i'm not taking sides cause i'm a fan of both teams. for very different reasons. but somehow, i think i know who's going to win. and it's the one with the hot coach. not the oldest coach. those who know their soccer/euro 2008 know who and which team i'm talking about. all the best, i'd say.

change of plans. instead of watching the finals outside with friends, we're opting for the telly at home. my mum is ecstatic it's annoying.

game over

2008-06-26T23:25:00.005+08:00

ernests lost.

i'm pretty much depressed right now.

i've never been heavily invested.

and now i'm exhausted.

since i'm emo-ing, i was listening to take that's never forget. how apt.

we've come so far and we've reached so high
and we've looked each day and night in the eye
and were still so young and we hope for more
sorta.

--

it's almost customary to end a post with a photo of ernests.

next time, bb. sigh..

thursday

2008-06-25T15:26:00.004+08:00

OMGOMGOMG! ERNESTS FREAKIN BEAT ISNER'S ASS!

ok, this is much delayed. i was jumping up and down. like literally. when i saw the results last night. around midnight. i swear manis was giving me the wtf look cause she was sleeping. but heck. and nope, no sign of ernests on day two. star sports was busy with nadal, venus and the likes. i'm banking on thursday. please show the match. on centre court maybe? i'm contented if it's court one.

it's going to be ernests gulbis vs rafael nadal! i don't really want to think of the outcome though.

here's the ~~sweater~~ cardigan and the bag i wanted.

i'm not a fan of gold. but dude, put the class into everything.

wimbledon's pretty kind so far. no rain. and most of my favourites are still in. score! grosjean will be meeting gasquet. ARGH! is it possible for both to win? hmph. robredo is in. surprise, surprise. and gosh, tommy haas is looking mighty good with the short hair. he's possibly the first few tennis players i dig back in secondary school. aah, the times!

--

i've been glued to my ds. my eyesight is getting from bad to worse. i'm pretty sure i'm comfortable being a couch potato. i think my mum is slightly worried. but being my mum, she knows better than to give me time. i think my dad is the silliest person i know. ask me why. the story is too long to narrate here.

i've been hearing ben barne's voice everyday. no, i'm not delusional. he's on my ringtone. some boyband he was in. funny shit.

i think i have alot of people to meet. being broke is making me anti-social and extremely passive.

because i'm tennis-happy (an altered version of trigger-happy)

2008-06-24T00:19:00.006+08:00

wimbledon is finally here.

vijay singh (i met him before. he went to starbucks a couple of days before wimbledon 2006 or 2007, i think!) and the other dude, alan something starts commentating around 6.30-ish. i was already planted on my bed. first match was on court 14. i'm like wth?! where's federer?! well, i did get to see roger beat hrbaty ass. he looked immaculate in his wimbledon sweater. the dude is classy y'all! and i want his bag! the white one. ugh. too pretty! i have till 2am. 7 hours of tennis per day. THE LIFE!

fyi: the amount of junk i eat is ridiculous.

i cannot wait for tomorrow. my boy, ernests is playing. woot woot! the dude gotta kick some isner-ass cause he'll be meeting nadal if he wins. honest to god though. i think isner is a giant. here's he.

he doesn't look as threatening here but don't let that boy next door look fool you. i googled. he's 2.06cm. no shit!

here's my favourite guy flashing his signature grin.

good luck! ernests! i'll be rooting for you, homie. to more towel-head moments and kissing of rackets. CAN'T BLOODY WAIT LAH!

things you need to know about aliah:

wimbledon is her favourite grand slam EVER!
she needs to be there, one day.
she intends to replace georgina ~~kang~~ chang as wimbledon's correspondant

quiet please

2008-06-22T23:52:00.008+08:00

one day to wimbledon, bitches!

apart from totally immersing myself with anything tennis-related (i don't think i can spare you guys. i truly LOVE tennis! and the countless hot studs on court. hah.), life's been pretty normal. well, if you consider semi-bumming normal lah. technically, i'm half-employed.

question.
so, when are you getting a full-time job?

a real job, most would say. well, when i'm ready and if IT finds me. don't get me wrong. i'm looking. but true to my nature, i won't settle. i don't expect a big paycheck. it'll be nice but it's not number one on my list. is that a joke?! sorry, no.

I WANT TO WORK FOR GREENPEACE GODDAMMIT!

i'm looking for a job that doesn't depress me endlessly. of course, there'll be the dreading and looking forward to weekends bit. but that's part and parcel of working, ain't it?

i haven't been paying much attention to euro 2008 as much as i should. why? i have work in the morning. i don't like being a walking zombie. i am, however, going to stay up all morning to watch the italy vs spain match later. gotta back my homies. forza italia! i don't care if they're made up of has-beens and old farts.

i need to thank the boys from flight of the conchords for being oh-so-precious. they're the epitome of hilarious without trying. i've grinned like an idiot in the bus listening to their songs countless times. wait, on a daily basis actually. haha.. that's how awesome they are.

here's me showing off my 'i love fotc' badge.

game, sweat, match

2008-06-13T19:46:00.006+08:00

this week is coming to an end. THANK GOD!

i'm pretty much in one piece.

i'm lazy to go into details. here's everything in point form. just like back in the days. copying notes in lectures.

- i have a temp job sorting papers for the examination board.

- i see a hello kitty pajamas. did mum just bought it for me? *beams*

- we're truly relegated to strangers, aren't we? i'm not sure if i'm happy with the new arrangement.

- if it's written in the stars, i might be heading for australian open 2009.

- i'm itching to play tennis.

- can someone shoot me please?! they're showing the queen's championship on star sports. HAD NO FREAKIN IDEA! and now gulbis is out. THANKS AH! some kinda stupid joke.

- caca is over for a sleepover. yay! i've got tons to say. but i don't think time is on my side. it's true when they say you never realise how important someone is until they're away.

- i know i'm lazy. but i look worse when i'm surrounded by gung-ho people who wants to do everything!

a conversation i had with my mum.

mum: what's that on your forehead?
me: pimple *sulks*
mum: that's for daydreaming to much.
me: i know.

the truth is never simpler.

it feels like shit

2008-06-10T01:49:00.001+08:00

i feel like crap.

i cannot wait for this week to be over.

pork & beans + hair

2008-06-08T16:14:00.007+08:00

two words. i'm PSYCHED!

it's ridiculous. i wasn't too happy with their previous albums. 2 cds after the green album, to be precise. just because it was too glossy for my liking. i DO NOT like the idea of the boys frolicking with beverly hills bombshells. yuck! i prefer them ala buddy holly. or lounging with animals in island in the sun. yay!

i had no clue there was a sixth album until the whole youtube video. cute, i must say. pork and beans. check it out if you're bored. it's pretty entertaining. watch out for some familiar faces. heh.

and my, have i forgotten how much i dig lanky dudes with floppy hair. GAH!

talking about hair. it's official. i have a hair fetish. but first.

french open 2008 = awesome shit

tonight's the men's finals. federer vs nadal, bitches! i don't have any favourites cause both guys are spectacular to watch. either way, a record will be set. it's whether we want to see nadal win his fourth consecutive french open or for federer to win all 4 grand slams (he's won the other 3 grand slams except the french open). never been done before. pretty historic, i'd say.

this picture kinda sums up them as players.

cool, classy federer VS fiery, aggresive nadal.

i've been stuck in front of my telly for the past two weeks. like a daily routine, it starts at 8pm and ends around midnight. all the while i'm dreaming about the time i'll be on the stands. watching the matches LIVE!

a few years from now, i know.

back to the topic of my unfortunate hair fetish. like a smack on my face gulbis came into view. the dude is underage. i feel like a paedophile. i swear ayam will start taunting me about this. i blame the europeans! why must a 19 year old latvian boy look like he's old enough to date me? muahaha..

his hair is perfection.

i tried concentrating on his game but GAWD! the curls. i was mesmerized. it looks like he's using a fabulous shampoo. his hair looks happy. ok, that sounded weird. but gosh, i LOVE natural hair on guys. no gels, no wax. nothing. just leave it be.

i've got a massive headache but i think i'll be fine by 8pm.

light my fire

2008-05-31T22:26:00.005+08:00

i wanted to blog about this like months ago. around the time when the latest season of american idol began. but i lost complete interest when michael johns got kicked out. HARSH! i even stopped watching the show altogether. i was THAT pissed. i didn't even watch the freakin finale. i couldn't care less who won. both ain't michael in my eyes. anyways, the purpose of the entry was to talk about my love for the show. it's not an undying one. but i've been hooked since season two. i only remembered two things from season 1 though. (1) i digged kelly's blonde streaks, i wanted it for myself. (2) justin is just CHEESE. eww..

here's the intended post. or how it might have looked like if i did post it when i wanted to. phew! that was a handful.

everyone knows by now that MY american idol contestant is elliott yamin. dude is flawless.

i loveLOVElove his voice. such soul. dang! i can come up with a million of reasons why this guy is made of so much win. his late mother was a pivotal reason why i adore him so. the way she's always excited when he's performing. that just kills me each time. especially if he sings a sad song and she cries, I'LL CRY TOO! and he's always giving shoutouts to his mum and telling her he love her. *dies* i gotta be honest. i didn't notice him straight away. but THIS song. i had goosebumps and i was tearing by the end of it. i will forever remember that day.

it's that magical.

other folks and performances worth mentioning:

anwar robinson. man, this guy had so much potential. i was crushed he didn't create an impression. i think some songs are sacred and they should NEVER be sung unless you're the original singer. for example, somewhere over the rainbow and moon river. but heck. he did such an awesome job, i forgot.

i wasn't a fan of mcphee. i still think she's gorgeous though. but her rendition of somewhere over the rainbow was phenomenal. she managed to maintain that old schoolness about the song. everytime i listen to this song, i only want to think of judy garland and no one else. she managed to incorporate that. thank god.

kudos.

and lastly, michael johns. GAH! i think he's perfect. i thought he would made it to top 3. i was WRONG! and i hate it when my predictions are wrong. cause it's sucky. the oracle is never wrong. meh. i was a fan right from the start. i blame the tennis bit. i cannot resist anything that's related with tennis. he won points right away. i was happy when he covered the doors. he did the song justice, i think. done sexily.

i trust, i'll be seeing/hearing from you soon mr johns.

and here's the photo i promised cindy (ayam you can see this again! haha..). WHY DID BLOGGER SHRINK THIS BEAUTIFUL PHOTO?! it's much bigger on my mac. haha..

MATI!

babysitters road trip to BKK

2008-05-28T16:58:00.006+08:00

i think by now everyone's sick and tired of my bangkok entries. so for the babysitters trip to bangkok, i'll just post our happy photos. don't mind our sticky faces. we were stinky and sweaty (most of it was me) but very giddy. not forgetting trigger happy. here's the snapshots.

since we're on a tight budget, we opted for a guesthouse.

it felt like we're staying in a chalet.

i felt like we're away on ns. our own single bed and a bedside table. we're missing a locker to paste our boyfriends pictures though. heh. here's my bed. we picked our beds antm-style. being the lazy mofo, i just picked the bed in front of me.

us on a tuk tuk. that day was filled with wrong directions and getting lost. but i enjoyed the boat-hoping!

contrary to popular belief, i actually LOVE veggies. NOT! ok, i was forced to eat the salad. heh.

we were cam whoring all the way to the airport.

check out my new shades.

as for the tourist-y photos, i'll post them on my flickr account soon.

--

i just got back from kl. it was a spontaneous trip. i finally tried mary brown.

french open is on, bitches! i hope i didn't miss anything spectacular.

apologies if i you haven't seen me or heard from me for ages. i've been a busy bee. not kidding. more workload from cat welfare society duties. we're still looking for sub-committee members and volunteers. let me know if you're interested.

because i'm oh-so-lazy

2008-05-18T22:16:00.010+08:00

this is part two of my bangkok trip. i'm sorry it took eons.

the thing i enjoyed most in bangkok was the streets. trust me, i'm no fan of walking but i love soaking up the city. we'll walk for ages. take the bus. get stared at. talk to the locals. get stared at again. hah. i blame my aunties. they're noisy. but tons of fun.

here's the street near my hotel.

i was surprised when my aunt remembered i wanted to go to the floating market. this came from my countless whining about not going to bangkok when everyone has. she laid another shocker when she said, "you want to go to the death railway right?" honest to god. i was stunned. she remembered?! aww.. but we didn't go. next time!

the floating market was bustling with people. i didn't care if it was all for show. the real floating markets didn't exactly look like this. i'm thinking dirtier and smellier. heh. but heck. i was PSYCHED! being on a boat. all the time, i was worried about dropping my camera into the river. i have a knack of doing such things. but i didn't. phew!

here's our hotel. looks impressive eh. it's pretty good.

i was already dreading the flight back home here. ugh.

our luggages always multiply when we travel. heh. that's the way we roll, i'd say.

the next time i was back in bangkok. it was less than a month ago. many debts later. haha.. this time, with the babysitters.

wait for that!

marie, marie, marie

2008-05-12T00:39:00.004+08:00

HOLY COW?!

i've been searching for the song you're listening to while reading this FOR YEARS! i'm. not. kidding. since 1999 to be exact. i kept having the chorus in my head, time and again. it's like an itch that i couldn't get rid of. i want to thank my handphone and the internet for helping me find this song. GAH! my phone rocks, i swear. it has a track id function. i record 30 seconds of the song and it'll help me find a title and a name. hell yeah. i was a sceptic initially. but not right now, baby.

i can't believe i spend my weekend on a korean drama and movie. i eat my words. totally and whole-heartedly. i blame daniel henney. why must you be gorgeous? i also blame my advertising class. my group used mr henney as our model for the pseudo-tv ad. not good. i think a week ago, i saw him talking about his mummy and i just lost it. my brain stopped functioning and i went, "must have daniel henney". he's adorable. i don't care if he looks plastic. you know who you are. hah.

i think he's blardy fine.

if you must know, i love LISTS!

case in point: people's 50 most beautiful, vanity fair hollywood issue, time's 100 most influential people etc.

i'm going to start a list of lists from now on. first up, ALIAH'S TOP 5 ACTORS. and i mean this with candor.

1. EWAN MCGREGOR (like duh!)
2. christian bale
3. guy pearce
4. gary oldman
5. adrien brody

before i leave, a funny conversation i had a couple of days ago.

me: i want to work for greenpeace.
C: huh?
me: WHAT?! you don't know what's greenpeace?
C: erm..
S: i know, i know!
me: what is it?
S: it's green peas right [begins to show with her hand the size of a pea]

*this is where i burst out laughing

me: you guys go google it

i love BKK

2008-05-05T00:15:00.009+08:00

i really do. with all my heart. and so much more. i just need to do a couple of things till it's perfect.

1. learn thai
2. make some thai friends
3. get a permanent residency
4. my mum ask me to buy a house there. not a joke.

anyways, apologies for my very late blog post on bangkok. i've been there twice. in a span of a month, nonetheless and still no peek-tures!

here's part one.

my first time in bangkok. with my two aunts. who were absolutely fabulous. i can never say enough thank yous for making it happen. i think they were sick of me pouting everytime someone mentions the word, 'bangkok'. i'm afraid they failed at shutting me up cause i've never stopped talking since.

the whole village turned up. by village i mean, my whole family. granny included.

the bangkok i imagined. and more.

i was talking to cinsi and ayam about a certain air i got when i got there. it was just like stepping into a filipino/thai movie, where everything's sorta in sepia. but slightly yellowish. a certain surrealism.

we took the tuk tuk everywhere we go. it was damn cool la. i don't mind having smoke and grime on my face at all. was soaking it all up. the city, the sounds. even the unhealthy air.

the traffic. it wasn't THAT bad. or maybe i'm just bias.

the chao phraya river.

it was once the heart of bangkok. everything was done on the river. everyone had to go through the river. it's like their expressway. it's slowly losing it's importance. apart from being a tourist attraction. which is kinda sad.

wat pho. temple of dawn. pretty view from the bottom. i didn't go up cause the stairs were whoa. haha.. i hate stairs. enough said.

you can find people feeding the fishes with bread. if i'm not wrong, it's kinda like an offering. the fishes in the river are considered sacred and are not allowed to be killed.

this guy is one of the vendors from the floating market. their shop is their boat. more of that later.

it was pretty amazing to watch him sell his products. reminds me of an ice-cream truck. constantly on the move. ooh, you need agility for this.

we managed to eat in between our shopping spree. didn't have much trouble finding halal food. like seriously.

here's a glimpse of chatuchak weekend market. one word. CRAZY! i went nuts in there. wanted to buy every freakin thing i saw.

we caught the sunset on our way out.

part two next. i'll write more on my trip to the floating market.

make it work!

2008-04-27T01:06:00.003+08:00

it's happening. and when it happens, it's going to kick your ass.

THIS is possibly one of my favourite JAM moment thus far. i couldn't stop grinning for about a day after that episode.

and in a way, i think that the quote from jim rings true. especially with the bangkok trip. the uncertainties. some of us lost hope. we thought the plan will never materialise. but no. i kept saying, i'm gonna make it happen. guess what? WE made it happen. yay for us! ok, i better start packing now.

--

on friday, we decided to hangout since helaine's leaving for spain and it's been far too long.

we went to rail mall to eat. which looks awesome. but a tad out of the way. unless you drive. hmph. this is the part where i'm supposed to think about getting a license. but no, i'm too lazy to drive and i think its expensive. ooh, and massively overrated since i'm at it.

it's an italian deli. can't remember the name though.

here's us.

the desserts.

it's way appetizing in real life. i was too excited about my chocolate mousse to concentrate on taking a photo.

the end of university life

2008-04-25T01:50:00.004+08:00

with a POOF! exams are over.

here's me mugging.

kinda.

as much as a i dread mugging for papers, there was a certain melancholy when i made my way out of the school. my last paper. my last day at school. as an undergraduate. look ma, i'm done! well, about done is a better word. i still have convocation and prom. yay for that.

like any after-exams-let's-go-celebrate days, this time round we decided to go popeye's!

one word. awesome.

i make a terrible food critic, don't i? too short and simple for elaboration. more like lazy and i tend to run out of adjectives pretty fast. even for someone who rocks at scrabble! *wink, wink*

so, who wants to go? let's gogogo!

here's my plans for now:

- make bangkok/grad trip happen
- score the interview
- finish reading raise high
- meet for a game of scrabble
- movie marathon with the babysitters

pseudo-exam mode

2008-04-23T16:31:00.004+08:00

i like that pretty much everyone i know is either painfully distracted or restless hours before an exam. it's like everyone's dying to get it over and done with. and i agree. completely. anywho, i need to get back to my psy text. not before fantasizing about what it would be like if jim/john is my prof. presenting, prof krasinski.

he did mention he wanted to be an english teacher in a recent article. dammit. i'll definitely ace his class la.

i'm thinking.. will it be another trip to bkk for me? next week maybe? please god. promise i'll be good.

i want to be a nak muay. for real.

2008-04-12T22:52:00.013+08:00

the contender asia finale.

like finally. we came early in a taxi. grabbed a drink. met some familiar faces. and went to search for our seats. holy shit. my bro went, "are those really our seats?" and i went, "i'm good." coupled with a smirk. we sat on the front row, metres away from the ring. i was psyched.

the girls undercard match made me think. i seriously want to take up muay thai now. that and yoga. cause i want to be fighting next season's finale. heh. me, a nak muay? we'll see. fyi: nak muay = boxer/fighter. gawd. i can think of my possible wai khru right now.

so, what went down?

4 hours of muay thai. 2 undercard matches. 3 fights from the previous contestants. soren vs sean. zack vs zidov. rafiq vs dzabhar. and the match that determines the winner of the contender asia. spoilers ahead!

yodsaenklai vs john wayne parr.
possibly the best fight ever la. everyone was screaming and up on their feet. it was awesome. i was rooting for both of em actually. the best muay thai fighter vs the legendary farang in muay thai. both guys rock. and i can't decide who i want to win. in the end, both kicked ass. especially john wayne. dude is old but he's quick! the squat move was ridiculous. i remember shrieking and slamming my bro's arm. it was THAT exciting. well, if you 'get it' la.

anywho, i won't yabber much cause most are not familiar with the sport and the terms i might use. so yeah. unless you're interested, i don't mind yakking about it. heh. i'll let the photos do the talking then. ooh.. i went clickety-mad, i swear. my battery died after the night ended. even though i wanted to get some more photos of a certain someone in stripes. dude is popular. i don't get why i'm SO jealous. does. not. make. any. sense. at. all. heck. maybe i'll cause a scene if i went to the after-party. haha..

here's the photos folks.

my favourite guy, soren. sigh..

the fight of the night. one word. awesome.

happy camper.

i've got more photos HERE! haven't uploaded everything though.

note:

i'm sorry if i spoiled the suspense for those who will be watching the show on channel 5.

PEACE

2008-03-31T22:28:00.005+08:00

i know i've got alot of things to write about here. namely, trip to the zoo and bangkok. but i'm lazy. and tired of advertising class. the group is killing me. perfection was never something i strive for. i might be in the wrong team. i will never understand the euphoria of grades. letters and numbers will never satisfy me. it's just a temporary yay. if i do badly, it's because i suck. all i'm worried is getting to the end. when all is done, will i have enough good to let me through.

for now, i keep thinking to myself..

i would fit perfectly in 1960's woodstock.

fyi: i promise tons of photos and commentary.

I feel better now I've seen you

2008-03-11T17:12:00.006+08:00

past couple of days were filled with tons of music. more than my average dosage, that is. they were awesome tunes. LOVE. once again, thank you mosaic. if only i can devise a plan to bring aaron in for next year's festival. hmm.. that'll be my modus operandi.

it feels like i'm taking a hiatus. carefree is the nearest word. i think music should seriously be considered medicine. cause it works for me. all the time. while spacing out, i came up with a list of bands i want to watch. the aim is 5 years time. the rule, do or die - must go see them live. eh, that rhymes!

super furry animals
beirut
dirty pretty things
the thrills
the hoosiers
of course there's tons more i want to see. bands and singers alike. but this is my immediate plan lah. one step at a time mah. it'll be a riot if they come to singapore. but i'm guessing no. i have to travel and find kakis. well, when the time comes i'll make it work somehow.

right now though, i'm only thinking of one thing.

21st march come quick.

i need to study. now.

rabid fans at broken social scene

2008-03-10T02:04:00.003+08:00

first - thank you cindi-san for scoring us superb seats.

second - rabid fans block my view and i had to half sit. whatever that means.

third - gawd. my love for canadian bands. gah!

fourth - SAMMY! i know, i know. enough of 'hims' already right? but i can't help it. he's SO my kind, it's not even funny.

fifth - i thought they were fab. amazing set. LOVE the introduction. brownie points for humour.

sixth - i'm incoherent.

i'm sucha a fangirl i should just stop. i took this photo cause i wanted to show his freakin nice blue stripe shirt to everyone. it's too pretty! i want it! shame i couldn't get a closer shot. well, it felt like we were super close. so yeah. alot was at line. thus the refrain.

seriously though, watching sammy play i can't help but wonder. i now understand why i dig guys in bands so much. probe me for details. it's too 'deep' to be written out for all to see.

tomorrow. trey. i think i'm spending too much time at the esplanade. but heck. mosaic festival 2008 rocks!

it had to be you, harry

2008-03-08T00:49:00.006+08:00

photo by savannah grandfather

this cannot wait.

i keep seeing snippets of tonight's show every few minutes. in my mind. and beats that keep ringing in my head. kinda like memento. think guy pearce trying to recollect. hot stuff. i love my aussie men!

one word. phenomenal.

harry connick jr, i think you were flawless. and a total dork. your charm, my gawd. *dies* once again, thank you for tonight. i LOVE it.

what a night! argh. if only it went all night. cause honest to god, it was such a fantastic set. my first concert with cindi-san was fantabulous! to trey and this sunday. yay!

i swear i stopped breathing for about 2 to 3 seconds when he sang it had to be you for the encore. a bad song to end the night?! are you kidding me?! it's possibly my most favourite (along with the whole concert theatre lah) love song. which also includes, i love you for sentimental reasons, night and day and what a difference a day makes. but that's for another post. oh ya, and the very thought of you too.

harry!

i've got a hamburger phone!

2008-03-04T16:11:00.006+08:00

fact: the wireless at coffee bean is for starhub users. suckass.

imagine trying to rush a deadline on a busy saturday night. IT'S NOT FUNNY. i manage by sitting outside a crowded starbucks. yes, at the seats along orchard road. people were staring. i think at mima's black macbook. cues oohs and aahs. hah. but i managed only to get reprimanded. which was apt, if you think about it. well, that's another story.

i think i hurt my back. it's pretty sore. i've never been injury-prone my whole life. not even while i was playing sports. age is catching up on me. i blame work. was carrying heavy loads. i don't know why. there were many boys working that day. i just don't have a habit of asking for help from the men at work. *pukes*

by the way, i totally went against my 'no online shopping for the month of february' for THIS.

look what i got. a hamburger!

hello, hello.

kinda like juno.

when i saw it, i went "I WANT!" so yeah. i got it and now i'm giddy. people call me now. i promise i won't be snarky.

here's what/who i wake up to every morning. how to hate. i call it love in furs.

better than fine

2008-03-01T01:30:00.005+08:00

guess what? I'M BACK!

after a hellish week, friday came right on time. i'm thinking, next week will be oh-so-fine. apart from presenting on tuesday, that is. the pressure! ugh. i hope things will get better for some. i'm praying for health. i also wish for many more talks. with all the babysitters next time.

p.s. i love you was lovely. one word. saccharine. but i still like it. maybe i'm bias. cause i did squeal when i saw harry connick jr's name. yes, just the alphabets. not the person. as much as i enjoyed the movie i kept thinking, "omg. i can't believe i'm seeing harry in a weeks' time!" PSYCHED! counting down the days. mosaic festival, here i come!

i'm making so many plans. i'm praying it'll all materialize. that's all. i believe in 2008.

favourite phrase of the week/month: chok dee. which means good luck in thai. i'm itching to take up thai. just because i'm SO in love. with thailand. and the richness of it's culture and history. i envision the need for it in the future. don't ask.

i've been thinking of anne's peter the whole week. i've been enthralled by the diary of anne frank since forever. and to finally put a face to those descriptions, how apt.

i've never had such a clear mental image of him.
i don't need a photograph,
i can see him oh so well.

it's all over but the crying

2008-02-25T21:35:00.005+08:00

i apologize if i'm an ass.

this week is sucking pretty badly. and it's only monday. i'm in no mood to be around humans. i'm afraid i might hurt people. i have a massive headache that won't go away. such a parallel to the past two weeks. one word to describe it. euphoria. it was such a ride while it lasted. i keep asking, "why can't it be a little longer?" sad to say, i've never been happier. which kinda suck. and i hate to admit it but i'm so down. you won't even know.

this week and next will be a killer. presentations. reports. midterms. i believe the last semester will end with a bang. march will be rocking. oh, i can't wait for many things. i keep getting these feelings. jittery ones. about nothing specific. just random gut movements. i can't count on it to be huge things to come. but i'm positive about it.

if i could i would
i'd change everything
cause i can't forget you though you don't believe me
now i can't walk back
i can't leave behind
where does it go all the light that we had?

everything you think you know baby
is wrong
and everything you think you had baby
is gone
thank you garbage for making sense. i love that music can always cure me from any emotion. to not being unhappy anymore.

before i go. i'm making what's my desktop wallpaper a frequent fixture here. today it's.

cheers to a pretty much sucky week ahead!

my love, from shanghai

2008-02-21T20:47:00.005+08:00

the irony. i was away when sam came home. so, i had to wait about a week to meet. but when it did, i felt like she never left. don't ask about change. although everything is the same, of course some things are different. i'll take it either ways.

so the JIans (yes jolyn, i call the JI gang, JIans) plan for everyone to meet. which was so much fun. i forgot i was tired from work. though i did slumped on the comfortable yet possibly very dirty couch a couple of times. who plays drinking games with ice lemon tea? we did. who took tons of photos - it felt like britney spears just walked past? we did. who made such a racket in the pub on sat that everyone else just disappears in the background? we did.

you guys rock. you know that right?

at arnold's. our favourite chicken place. like totally! look at us go. and take a look at the chicken. massive, yo!

guess what sam bought us from shanghai?

it might come in handy?

to sam

i wish you bluebirds in the spring
to give your heart a song to sing
and then a kiss, but more than this
i wish you love

mongkontong

2008-02-13T23:05:00.010+08:00

when i get to thailand (which i will), i'm going straight to soren.

edit: but wait, teddy just told me he's back in australia. i'm SO there. perth and brisbane, not too far apart right?

edit edit: omg. just googled for map of australia. it's at the opposite sides. man, i'm screwed.

Photo by Lawrence Ripsher
oh the way you smile when you're kicked. priceless.

my pseudo-into the wild trip

2008-02-11T01:14:00.000+08:00

i hit the road for the 4 days i disappeared. my wish for isolation didn't turn out well. i still received calls and messages. (1) i didn't want to be an asshole and not reply. i'm not like that at all. (2) i care to check my handphone even though i promise i wouldn't. just because mum was missing me and she called. so yeah. there's no way of not caring.

lately, i've been psyching myself pretty badly for into the wild. i totally dig the whole idea of dumping all of 'reality' and leave. i've always told helaine, i want to be a monk and escape to the mountains. i know i've said it since year one of ji. i still want to do that. minus the monk part, thank you.

the major part of me just want to experience life in it's entirety. living a 9 to 5 job is not my idea of life. visiting places, meeting people, feeling and thoroughly enjoying God's creation is my idea of life. soaking in everything without any obligations. no definitive measures. that is what i seek. but honestly, i need money to do all that. unless i'm a dude and i can get free rides from people. man, this chris mccandless is really rubbing off me. reading the book during the trip was kinda surreal cause i half-felt that i was in my own kinda tiny oddysey.

i packed my bags and with my dad, we hopped on a bus and off we went. to a place where nature is THE way of living. the vast rice fields, the crashing waves of the south china sea greets us. i am in my element. well, sort of.

i swear i've conquered half of malaysia. why?

(1) malay families LOVE field trips to our neighbouring country
(2) MY family LOVE field trips to our neighbouring country

i have to admit. i was dreading the trip cause mum's not coming. and my partner for long bus rides to malaysia is always my mother. cause she rocks and i suck at being with anyone else for long. but dad, being dad. dragged me along for the ride. well, thank you so much. cause i've never realised i enjoyed being in malaysia as much till this trip. i think it's the surroundings. it calms me down. and oh, how i need it desperately.

early morning. first up, kelantan. the sun rising. me thinking, "gawd. i'm never awake this early."

my dad getting sotong kering (dry cuttlefish) from some roadside vendors.

the streets littered with cars in a one way lane. shops lined the streets. selling everything and anything. we had authentic kelantan-ish rice and stuff.

the trees at kelantan. the sky. pretty, pretty.

next, terengganu. the air far much clearer. the breeze rather light. it's indescribable. i think i'm in love with this place. like for real. i enjoy being there, it's insane.

as usual, a trip to the batik factory. i'm constantly engaged by art. i'm just depressed i'm not as inclined as i want to be. why god why? why can't i paint like my dad? why can't i draw like my bro? perhaps.

my dad 'teaching' a total stranger how to paint the colour for the batik print. THAT, i can never be. he talks to everyone. the guy next to us. the uncle from the shop. everyone. HOW DOES HE DO IT?!

on our way to the beach resort. houses by the sea. it was shaky cause i was in the bus and i went crazy when i saw the waves.

what it's like being in a bus. with 30 plus others. correction. there were about 40 of us. madness. love. frustration. memories. tales for my storytelling sessions. and so much more.

the view from my hotel room. and the surroundings.

possibly my favourite moment. spending some time with my dad, watching live tennis. russia versus serbia. hantuchova was playing. and we were exchanging comments, tips and whathaveyous. it was nice. over a cup of coffee and tea each. strawberry cheescake and the sea breeze. i'm such a daddy's girl. it's not even funny.

i think i kinda caught the final traces of a sunrise.

i wasn't kidding when i said it was beautiful.

i swear i had a permanent grin plastered on my face while we're at the beach. i half-wish i wasn't afraid of the water. i think i make a pretty mean mermaid.

the waves were kinda scary at the beginning.

in the old times, we malays, wash our feet using this.

now, let me show you how.

bomba = fire engine/brigade in malay.

the view from inside the hotel.

their idea of a bridge. wooden. and pretty much unstable.

very on the road-ish, don't you think?

my dad. my granny. and my aunt laughing.

loads of smelly, dry fish crackers.

salted fish, anyone?

what about cuttlefish?

just like that, i'm back.

and i apologize for the onslaught of photos. i've got some more HERE.

JAM

2008-02-06T00:17:00.001+08:00

because i feel miserable.

and i miss THE OFFICE terribly.

nothing makes me happier.

i'll be away. for about 4 days.

if i don't reply your smses or calls.

nope, i'm not ignoring you.

i hate ulcers!

2008-01-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

i'm lazy to write alot. which is weird. but not really when i'm pms-ing and pretty badly, i might add. i don't feel like talking to anyone. well, except to my family and cats. cause i simply cannot not talk to them. it's inconceivable. being in school helps. weird. i was never a fan. but ayam and sham are a riot. so, thanks guys. you have no idea how much you've helped. i don't think you guys are even aware i'm being angsty this week. just because, i love y'all. eww.. the mushy-ness is killing me. i blame this week's relevation. more of that this friday, i hope.

instead of my usual blabber, i'm posting photos to update what's going on in this head of mine and life in general.

novak djokovic won the australian open. yay!

ok, i admit it. i was rooting for tsonga in the finals. what can i say, i'm a sucker for underdogs. but nole was being a wanker as usual. i dig his speech. he makes me laugh and he's got great potential. one of my favourites. definitely. so much for complaining 'i hate australian open' each time one of my favourites lose.

OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY HAD SAG AWARDS?! well, duh. of course they did. it's an award by the actors for the actors. score!

as usual, the red carpet hawk in me was drooling over gorgeous dresses and beautiful tresses. gah! i want to grace the red carpet so badly. no one has a clue.

my choice for best dress: amanda bynes. love the colour. love the style.

guess what? my favourite tv show won best ensemble cast. THE OFFICE! and jenna, what a lovely speech you gave. i was deeply touched. and girl, i love your dress too.

two words. mark testino. probably my favourite photographer. well, after annie lebowitz that is. and kate looks amazing in this shot. i can't believe i hated her during the titanic days. i was so jealous of her and leo. it's so silly now. she's one example of 'i hate her/him list but i dig her/him now'. it's a LONG list by the way.

note: i lied. i did write alot. i can't help it.

climb the ladder

2008-01-22T01:02:00.000+08:00

when i'm caught in a net and i haven't a clue
all i've got to do is climb the ladder to you
climb the ladder

when there are ghosts in my coat

and everything is askew
all i've got to do is climb the ladder to you
climb the ladder to you

all of these faces are crowding around me
with mouths open wide to devour
but they have no impact no i do not cower
knowing i'm safe in your tower

when my pencil tips broken and my brain is too
all i've got to do is climb the ladder to you
climb the ladder

when i feel like an oar in a sunken canoe
all i've got to do is climb the ladder to you
climb the ladder to you

all of these faces are crowding around me
like grey paint caked on a flower
but they have no impact no value no power
knowing i'm safe in your tower

climb the ladder

of montreal

if only i had my ladder with me. sigh.

sometimes songs makes sense
and it stinks.
if it's sung in a melancholic tune.

now i'm in no mood.

projectrungay

2008-01-18T01:59:00.000+08:00

i rarely get pimples. and when i do, i freak out. as in, major worryfest. it's a quasi-nervous breakdown. the paranoia! i need it to go away NOW! ugh. can't stand seeing it on my nose. i feel really fug. i risk sounding like a bimbo but who gives a shit. well, i certainly don't.

first week of semester. pretty smooth, i think. so far, steady. books are damn heavy though. i envision bad backs. think hunchback of notre dame. i don't mind the reading but feels like we're back in primary school. remember bringing everything when there's no need.

on to much interesting news, i finally saw the first issue of narf zine. PSYCHED! i had my mini fits. no foaming but plenty of moving around. bloody excited. the rush i got when i saw my two articles and my name. priceless. i cannot wait for you guys to take a look at it. rather apprehensive though.

i need to get up early every morning. i'm not complaining. i just need adjusting. after a month of sleeping at 4am in the morning, it's pretty tough. but i think i can make it. it's not that bad considering i have short days. whee! thing is, i cannot seem to sleep early. as much as i tried. i'm wide awake. and when i wake up the next day, i'm tired. but only for a few minutes from the start of class. after that, i'm pretty dapper.

i blame project runway! the show is addictive. my favourite this season is christian. he's such a bitch. the mouth damn laser sia. most entertaining contestant ever. and he's quote-worthy, i swear. with the snide remarks and the deadpan face. heh. worth every sleepless night.

here's a dress made by jack. i LOVE it to bits. i would SO pay him to make me one. pretty, pretty.

oh ya, this season there's only one straight guy. poor bloke. and there's a chick who's super weird. i'm digging the new season. cause the challenges are way crazy. and the designers have so much potential. oh, the drama too!

off to watch episode 4!